It is now 2 am Wednesday morning and I am still working on my found art piece for this week and still doesn't feel finished. The worst part is that I've been working on it since Friday and I can't understand why is taking me so long to finish it. I have been busy as always but there's something else going on. I want to do so many things and I can't seem to find the time, but maybe.....no, the time is there, it's just that I can't focus on anything. I start to do something and 5 minutes into that I remember something else so I start another thing, and then a minute later it's someone who needs something and so on, you get the picture. And then the grocery shopping, picking up daughter from school, afternoon classes.... etc... So I feel I'm everywhere-and-nowhere at the same time, doing lots of things (maintenance kind of things) that need to get done but nothing to show for it at the end of the day, nothing tangible, and when everyone is in bed I am soooooo tired I don't have the energy to sit in my studio, I just want to hear the sweet sound of silence, or better yet, go to bed too.

There's something going on here, I used to be more focused, maybe I just need more rest? Maybe I want to take on too many projects at the same time? I heard someone today use the word overachiever, (not referring to me, by the way....) trying to describe someone who wants to do so many things at once and not always being successful at it. I always thought an overachiever was someone so pulled together, always doing everything right on the first try. And the ones who try to do everything at once unsuccessfully (like me) were just disorganized :)

I have decided right now that instead of working two more hours I will go to bed and just get some sleep. Tomorrow will be a new day and I will try to focus on doing only one thing at once and after that one is done, go do another one, etc... and I know the found art will get done soon, maybe sooner than I expect....

And to make things worse, (or better) the weather has been so nice these past week, you just want to go outside, smell the flowers, look up at the sky and begin to remember how spring is like, how it feels to walk barefoot in the grass, how the butterflies and the fireflies look like in real life.

Maybe I just need some coffee and that's it. We'll see.....